...was a whoppin 652!!! Yeehaw! GREAT number...we are really happy about it!!!
Im feeling pretty great! I have to pee...alot! lol And Im hungry all the time (which really was the first sign I was pregnant lol) I think with me eating a bit more, its causing my hearburn...Im seeing major heartburn issues for this pregnancy (not unlike my third, which saw me through 3 bottles of Gaviscon! lol). I am technically about 4 weeks 5 days pregnant (which is so weird considering I only had the transfer 13 days ago) and one of my pairs of jeans is already getting a bit snug (damn meds...they probably are not helping). Ive been active on a surro forum and some of the ladies mentioned with betas like that, it could be twins! Yikes! Mes think not! lol I mean, I guess its possible for the embryo to divide but we did only transfer one so its probably not likely. Wouldnt that be a suprise though, if at our first ultrasound, we find that out?!! LOL
I have my first midwife appointment on the 18th of May....Im so happy that A and D are ok with me using a midwife as I gotta say, my experience with a midwife was so much better then a doc....not to put down the docs, because she was awesome, but I love the much more personal experience I get with a midwife. I love having up to an hour with her, rather then being rushed in and out in 10 min. I love that I get to make decisions based on my care, not just because "they" think I need it. Informed decision is an amazing thing, and I learned so much with my third pregnancy.
Anyhoo...I dont have much more to report...just my awesome second beta!!!! :)
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
And the news weve been waiting for......
................................................................................................................................................................................IM PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!
OMG!!!! I cant even tell you how excited I am!!!! Ok...Ill admit (now that I can) that on sunday, I broked down and had to POAS! LOL So I knew I was pregnant....BUT I had to keep my big mouth shut until my IP's knew after the beta today (which I might at at 10dp a 5dt was 212!!!!! so AWESOME!) So...this morning at 9:30 am I went for the blood work...of course, I could hardly wait for the results and kept refreshing the eHealth online over and over until it FINALLY showed up at 2:00ish!!! So I immedietly called up the NC in Seattle and told her....emailed her the eHealth report and she called A and D later on, when they were both home to receive the news! Then they called me on speaker phone and we had a nice little chat....we are all so excited!!!! Im so happy right now! Cloud 9 really!!!! Im so happy to be doing this and feel soooooo fortunate to be able to do it!!!!!
Second beta will be on friday....lets hope we see a nice number!!!! Either way, Im pregnant and thats the best news we could have had!!!!!!
Ok...so early, I know...but I added a ticker. I did a couple of IVF calculator which said Im due Jan 2, which says Im 4 weeks pregnant! Im a little confused because Ive only had the transfer 10 days ago, a 5 day embie which would be 15 days pregnant...thats no where close to 4 weeks...am I losing it? Does it get calculated differently then Im thinking?
OMG!!!! I cant even tell you how excited I am!!!! Ok...Ill admit (now that I can) that on sunday, I broked down and had to POAS! LOL So I knew I was pregnant....BUT I had to keep my big mouth shut until my IP's knew after the beta today (which I might at at 10dp a 5dt was 212!!!!! so AWESOME!) So...this morning at 9:30 am I went for the blood work...of course, I could hardly wait for the results and kept refreshing the eHealth online over and over until it FINALLY showed up at 2:00ish!!! So I immedietly called up the NC in Seattle and told her....emailed her the eHealth report and she called A and D later on, when they were both home to receive the news! Then they called me on speaker phone and we had a nice little chat....we are all so excited!!!! Im so happy right now! Cloud 9 really!!!! Im so happy to be doing this and feel soooooo fortunate to be able to do it!!!!!
Second beta will be on friday....lets hope we see a nice number!!!! Either way, Im pregnant and thats the best news we could have had!!!!!!
Ok...so early, I know...but I added a ticker. I did a couple of IVF calculator which said Im due Jan 2, which says Im 4 weeks pregnant! Im a little confused because Ive only had the transfer 10 days ago, a 5 day embie which would be 15 days pregnant...thats no where close to 4 weeks...am I losing it? Does it get calculated differently then Im thinking?
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Well....tomorrow is the big day....I go for blood work to see if Im pregnant or not!!! Ive been so anxious about this day because I just want it to be positive!!!! I do feel pregnant in some ways though. I have been hungry ALL THE TIME!!! Thats usually a sign for me lol. Since I did my cleanse, I havent had the craving to eat late at night but alas, here its been about 11pm and Im actually STARVING!!!! Seriously! And because I have my thyroid meds to take on an empty tummy, I cant even full fill my craving if its after 11pm (I usually go to bed around 1am so 11pm is the cut off).
Anyhow...as soon as A and D know the results, Ill be posting!!!! Wish me luck!!!
Anyhow...as soon as A and D know the results, Ill be posting!!!! Wish me luck!!!
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Seriously...Im going (pardon my french) fucking crazy with the waiting!!!!!!!! Ughhhhh!!!!!! Seriously!!!! Going nutso with anticipation! I dont know how other surros can take pregnancy test after pregnancy test, getting BFN over and over because they start so early...I just cant do it!!! Ive been told by the clinic NOT to take a pg test...but I just might have to for shits and giggles lol...of course, I wont be able to post the result, it would just be for me, to stop me from going nucking futs!!!! This is worse then the hurry up and wait period....its way worse...like 10 times worse times 10!!!!! I want to know sooooo badly it almost hurts!!!!
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Not much new...
Not sure if I feel pregnant yet lol Ive never really felt pregnant in the early stages...in fact, I didnt know I was pregnant with my first child until I was 11 weeks! I get no symptoms and that kind of sucks because theres nothing definitive toI indicate that this little embie is settling in nicely in my fluffy uterus! I keep thinking that I may have felt it implant, but I just dont know. I hear that when your on all the meds and stuff, that you start pudging out quicker and stuff and I definetly feel fatter lol...or maybe I just am! Its only been 4 days after all lol
So we have this thing called eHealth where you can check the results of your blood tests the same day you have the blood drawn....you see them before your doctor even gets the results. I asked my IPs if they wanted me to call them with the results, but they would prefer to have the "official" word...which probably wont get to them until the next day!!! Its going to KILL me to sit on that information for 24 hours!!! How can I not let my followers know, who Im sure will be waiting so anxiously, the results of the pregnancy test!!!!!!! lol
Today we had my aunts funeral. I spoke the eulogy and spoke for my mom as well. It was an emotional day but it was a nice to see everyone and to know so many people loved her so much.
Rest in paradise Auntie Tammy....love you always....see you on the other side.
So we have this thing called eHealth where you can check the results of your blood tests the same day you have the blood drawn....you see them before your doctor even gets the results. I asked my IPs if they wanted me to call them with the results, but they would prefer to have the "official" word...which probably wont get to them until the next day!!! Its going to KILL me to sit on that information for 24 hours!!! How can I not let my followers know, who Im sure will be waiting so anxiously, the results of the pregnancy test!!!!!!! lol
Today we had my aunts funeral. I spoke the eulogy and spoke for my mom as well. It was an emotional day but it was a nice to see everyone and to know so many people loved her so much.
Rest in paradise Auntie Tammy....love you always....see you on the other side.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Transfer complete!!!
Yay!!! Back from Seattle and the transfer went great!!!
We drove down Saturday afternoon and right away went to Pike Place market...where I picked up a couple of things (I love that place). We then went to our hotel to check in, took an hour to ourselves (me in my room...them in theirs) and met back down in the Lobby at 7. They had made reservations at this place called the Wild Ginger....O M G....soooooo amazing!!!! The food was delish. We have Seven Flavor Beef, Green Chili Thai chicken,Shrimp Pad Thai and Seshwan Beans all served with rice. I had my last beer (a La'Connor Porter...nice and dark) and we finished our meal with a crazy yummy chocolate torte. The dinner was truly the best meal Ive ever had...and the company was great!!!
We went back to our rooms where we went our separate ways away (we were on different floors). I had an ok sleep..not the best. And it wasnt out of excitement but out of what seemed to be the thinest doors ever!!! The hotel was nice, the rooms were nice and the beds comfy...but people were slamming doors and yelling down the halls at 2 and 4 am! WTF? You know, people do sleep!
Anyhow, we met down in the lobby at 10am as we had to be at the clinic at 10:30 so I could take my drugs and drink my water! We were taken into the room and waited for the doc and the embryologist, who told us that the embryo they were transferring, was "Grade A" and "The best you could hope for" He was very optimistic that we would get pregnant with this embryo!!! And they still had some to freeze as well which is great!!!
A and D got to be in the room and watch as they placed the little embie inside me. We got to see on a screen in front of us, the embie in its incubator being removed from its current home, going into the catheter type tube thingy (dont know the name of it) until it came into the room and was placed in its new home, inside my uterus!!! Sooooo exciting!!!! We saw it on the ultrasound go in. I laid there for 15 min (I ended up getting up to go pee as I couldnt hold it anymore) and then got dressed and left the clinic. After, we went and grabbed some subs and we were on our way back home (made it back in record time too!)
This is just so exciting!!! I cant believe that right now, I have this little embryo inside me!!! Ive been rubbing my belling saying "common little embie!!! Get comfy!!! I make a great host!!!" encouraging it along!!!
Here are a couple of pictures from the transfer!!! (I do have a better picture of the embryo...but its scanned on my other computer which is being an asshole right now and I cant do anything with it right now)
We drove down Saturday afternoon and right away went to Pike Place market...where I picked up a couple of things (I love that place). We then went to our hotel to check in, took an hour to ourselves (me in my room...them in theirs) and met back down in the Lobby at 7. They had made reservations at this place called the Wild Ginger....O M G....soooooo amazing!!!! The food was delish. We have Seven Flavor Beef, Green Chili Thai chicken,Shrimp Pad Thai and Seshwan Beans all served with rice. I had my last beer (a La'Connor Porter...nice and dark) and we finished our meal with a crazy yummy chocolate torte. The dinner was truly the best meal Ive ever had...and the company was great!!!
We went back to our rooms where we went our separate ways away (we were on different floors). I had an ok sleep..not the best. And it wasnt out of excitement but out of what seemed to be the thinest doors ever!!! The hotel was nice, the rooms were nice and the beds comfy...but people were slamming doors and yelling down the halls at 2 and 4 am! WTF? You know, people do sleep!
Anyhow, we met down in the lobby at 10am as we had to be at the clinic at 10:30 so I could take my drugs and drink my water! We were taken into the room and waited for the doc and the embryologist, who told us that the embryo they were transferring, was "Grade A" and "The best you could hope for" He was very optimistic that we would get pregnant with this embryo!!! And they still had some to freeze as well which is great!!!
A and D got to be in the room and watch as they placed the little embie inside me. We got to see on a screen in front of us, the embie in its incubator being removed from its current home, going into the catheter type tube thingy (dont know the name of it) until it came into the room and was placed in its new home, inside my uterus!!! Sooooo exciting!!!! We saw it on the ultrasound go in. I laid there for 15 min (I ended up getting up to go pee as I couldnt hold it anymore) and then got dressed and left the clinic. After, we went and grabbed some subs and we were on our way back home (made it back in record time too!)
This is just so exciting!!! I cant believe that right now, I have this little embryo inside me!!! Ive been rubbing my belling saying "common little embie!!! Get comfy!!! I make a great host!!!" encouraging it along!!!
Here are a couple of pictures from the transfer!!! (I do have a better picture of the embryo...but its scanned on my other computer which is being an asshole right now and I cant do anything with it right now)
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| Us right before the transfer |
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| The blastocyst...its already splitting and he even said there were "fetal cells" which is the dark spot |
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| bad pic...but the line there is the catheter with the embie in it...we saw it shoot right out! |
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Tomorrow is the big day!!!! A and D are picking me up soon and we will then make the 3 hourish drive to Seattle. Planning to go to Pike Place thinking today which is great cause I love it there!!
I go at 10:30 in the morning and get my vallium and start drinking water to get a full bladder. And then 11:30....duh duh duh....THE moment we have been waiting for!!! Im so stoked!!!!
Ill likely blog tomorrow night when I get home and post pictures of the trip! Think sticky thoughts!!! All your fluffy thoughts worked so Im banking on your sticky thoughts lol
I go at 10:30 in the morning and get my vallium and start drinking water to get a full bladder. And then 11:30....duh duh duh....THE moment we have been waiting for!!! Im so stoked!!!!
Ill likely blog tomorrow night when I get home and post pictures of the trip! Think sticky thoughts!!! All your fluffy thoughts worked so Im banking on your sticky thoughts lol
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
update
Please take the time to love the ones around you. Hug them and tell them you love them, no matter how close or apart you are....no matter the differences between you. Just because you are mad at someone, doesnt mean you dont love them...its important to tell them that.
Oh Im so looking forward to this weekend....a walk down to Pike Place, a night in a hotel (maybe Ill go for a swim...who knows!) and just in general 2 days without fighting kids (mine are still on spring break as their school is on a different calendar then everyone else) will be just pure bliss!!!!
Oh and todays PIO injection was much easier then yesturday. It didnt bleed at all...and I dont feel it now a half hour later lol I still feel yesturdays though lol
Oh Im so looking forward to this weekend....a walk down to Pike Place, a night in a hotel (maybe Ill go for a swim...who knows!) and just in general 2 days without fighting kids (mine are still on spring break as their school is on a different calendar then everyone else) will be just pure bliss!!!!
Oh and todays PIO injection was much easier then yesturday. It didnt bleed at all...and I dont feel it now a half hour later lol I still feel yesturdays though lol
Exciting and sad day...all at the same time
Good news....I started my Progesterone shots today!!! Yay!!! Im only saying Yay because it means we are 5 days away from the transfer!!! Im hopeing for some sort of an update from the clinic to see how many eggs they were able to retrieve today! I would love to know!!! The shot sucks. Yes...yes it does. But Ill make it through.! I have been able to feel where I injected all day. Not that its sore or that it hurts, but just, its there. I think I can do better tomorrow with how I did it though (I know I moved it a bit when it was in....probably not a great idea lol) Here is a video. Sorry Im so ditzy in it...but I was so nervous and anxious!
Bad news...my aunt was found in her apartment yesturday, passed away from an overdose (likely heroin). We dont have all the details but should find out a bit more and then as the toxicology test results come in and the autopsy is done. I spent the day with my mom and cousins, chatting, telling stories and just some light planning. It was very hard on my mom, as shes lost her little sister. My aunt had a very "colorful" life to say the least. We were not close, but then again, our whole family is not that close. But today, we came together and were there for each other. Friday, we will go through her apartment and gather the few possessions she had...and going through her journals and poetry to use in her memorial service. The next little while we be hard as we wait for answers....I just hope that she is at peace now...and not struggling with her demons. Shes on the other side, healed from the hell of her life and enjoying her rest. Love you Auntie Tammy....Rest In Peace
Im not religious by ANY stretch of the imagination (I am spiritual and have many different beliefs) But I do find comfort in the following poem
God looked around his garden, and found an empty space.
He then looked down upon the earth and saw her tired face.
He put his arms around her, and lifted her to rest.
Gods garden must be beautiful, he only takes the best.
I also found this other poem...about addiction and death....
Hey you guys don't feel guilty,
It was just my time to go.
I can see you're all feeling sad,
I can see the tears still flow.
My life's journey ended early,
The path I chose was short.
You all tried your best to change it,
But in the end it was for me to sort.
I know I caused you sadness,
I know caused you pain,
But I was captured by these demons,
They wouldn't set me free again.
They took away my freedom,
They took away my choice,
And when they got their hooks in,
You could hear it in my voice.
There were times I tried to fight them,
There was a time I nearly won,
But they came back and overpowered me,
I had nowhere left to run.
I haven't really left you guys,
I am closer than you know,
I will be the whisper in the wind,
I will be everywhere you go.
one day you will all forgive me
one day you will understand
and when your time on earth is done
I will be waiting to take your hand
Bad news...my aunt was found in her apartment yesturday, passed away from an overdose (likely heroin). We dont have all the details but should find out a bit more and then as the toxicology test results come in and the autopsy is done. I spent the day with my mom and cousins, chatting, telling stories and just some light planning. It was very hard on my mom, as shes lost her little sister. My aunt had a very "colorful" life to say the least. We were not close, but then again, our whole family is not that close. But today, we came together and were there for each other. Friday, we will go through her apartment and gather the few possessions she had...and going through her journals and poetry to use in her memorial service. The next little while we be hard as we wait for answers....I just hope that she is at peace now...and not struggling with her demons. Shes on the other side, healed from the hell of her life and enjoying her rest. Love you Auntie Tammy....Rest In Peace
Im not religious by ANY stretch of the imagination (I am spiritual and have many different beliefs) But I do find comfort in the following poem
God looked around his garden, and found an empty space.
He then looked down upon the earth and saw her tired face.
He put his arms around her, and lifted her to rest.
Gods garden must be beautiful, he only takes the best.
I also found this other poem...about addiction and death....
Hey you guys don't feel guilty,
It was just my time to go.
I can see you're all feeling sad,
I can see the tears still flow.
My life's journey ended early,
The path I chose was short.
You all tried your best to change it,
But in the end it was for me to sort.
I know I caused you sadness,
I know caused you pain,
But I was captured by these demons,
They wouldn't set me free again.
They took away my freedom,
They took away my choice,
And when they got their hooks in,
You could hear it in my voice.
There were times I tried to fight them,
There was a time I nearly won,
But they came back and overpowered me,
I had nowhere left to run.
I haven't really left you guys,
I am closer than you know,
I will be the whisper in the wind,
I will be everywhere you go.
one day you will all forgive me
one day you will understand
and when your time on earth is done
I will be waiting to take your hand
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