Ok...so I havent written since my ultrasound, but thats only because I was trying to get around to scanning the picture on my PC and since thats not happened yet, I figured I better just write something LOL

We had our first ultrasound on wednesday...and not only did we see a beautiful heartbeat, but we HEARD it too!!! A and D were amazed that they could see it, but were even more so when they heard it. It was so awesome to see their faces as they saw their babys heart beating away. Since they have no idea whats on an ultrasound, the doctor was so great and showed them what everything was so they could totally understand what they were seeing. So baby was measuring at 7wks 2 days (so RIGHT on target) and was about 11.83mm in size. So amazing that something thats under a centimeter small, can have a heart beat...crazy.

After our appointment, A and I went for lunch and then headed out to where I live and had a gelato and then went to the midwife. I had not met the midwife we saw (the practice has 3 midwives and this one wasnt there when I had my last kid) but she was really nice and helped put us both at ease about what to do about the hospital (can A and D stay there...should I go home right away and let them have my room as they probably wont be able to accomodate 2 rooms....do we have to sign something so that they have the right to make medical decisions on their baby, even though technically, they see the baby as mine biologically) So many questions...but the midwife said not to worry about it, that she would find out everything, contact the hospital, do what she needed to do to figure it all out.  We have an appointment booked for about a month from now and hopefully by then we will be able to hear the heartbeat on the doppler!!! So exciting!!!

Anyhow...soon I will get around to posting the pic I promise!!! Its not much but a blob but its still a picture!!!

Tomorrows the day!!!

Tomorrow, we get to see this little bean on an ultrasound!!!! I am sooooo excited!!! I cant wait to see the little heartbeat and the look on A and D's faces as they see their baby for the first time.

I will be bussing down town and meeting up with them, going to the appointment. Then A and I will be going for lunch and then in the afternoon, we have a midwife appointment!!! A will get to meet the wonderful lady who will help deliver her baby! I am super stoked for tomorrow and I just want to see that everything is good and there is a baby growing in my uterus!!!

Ill post a pic if they give me one!!!

I have the best parents

Tonight my hubby the kids and I went to my parents for dinner...its my birthday on Saturday and Madison and I are going camping with Girl Guides so we will not be around so we did my birthday dinner tonight. Mom make my favorite...Mac and Cheese...with probably 2 lbs of cheese and 2 lbs of bacon (that was split between two dishes and we polished off one lol). It was sooooooo good!!! Then we had deep fried ice cream for desert! Yum yum yum.

What was nicest of all...they gave me the sweetest gift...my dad picked it out. Aparently as soon as he saw it, he knew he wanted to get it for me because of what Im doing and the journey I am on. Its an earring and necklace set...the Celtic Cradle of Life....totally fitting and anyone who knows me knows how much I love everything Celtic. I think it looks like a womb with an embryo in it. He also chose my card...which had the following printed on it:

Like leaves upon a summer breeze,
Hearts are stirred by memories-
Those happy to remember things,
like childhood friends
and old porch swings,
Fmily storied told for ages
Daydreams tucked
between lifes pages
Teardrops spent
and laughter shared
Questions asked
adventrued dared
Memories stir the heart because
Theres joy found in "the way it was"

As you celelbrate today and dream of all thats yet to be
Take the time to think about a favorite memory
Think about beginnings and where your journey started
Look how far youve brought yourself
on paths that were uncharted

And know your in the memories
of other people too
People who are grateful
for the gift of knowing you.

I just thought it was the perfect gift and card for whats going on in my life right now and wanted to share. Here are a couple pictures of my new jewellery!

Dont mind my hair lol

Nothing new!

Just thought I would say hi though! lol Nothing much. Feeling great!!! No morning sickness (probably one of the reasons I dont mind being pregnant! lol) A little more tired then normal and DEFINITELY more hungry!!! I could eat all day long...except then I get heartburn from eating so much lol So I cant do that, plus, I need to stay healthy and not be a pig.

I posted on a local used clothes and toys group on FB the need for some maternity clothes and I got a whole bunch of responses and I totally lucked out and got some great maternity clothes!!! Ill get a couple new things, but for the most part, I dont think I need anything....oh except a new bra perhaps lol. My boobs are getting sensitive (which wasnt really an issue for me while being pregnant) and I think they are filling out a bit more (another thing that wasnt an issue for me). Oh well!!!

One thing I have been noticing is those nasty side uterine stretch cramps...you know, the kind that are like a side stitch that just creeps up on you? Oh...I totally forgot about those...and totally didnt miss them lol But its a reminder that there is a baby slowing stretching my uterus and reminds me to take it a bit easier. So as much as I dont like them, they serve a purpose I guess!!!

Anyone has any idea what I should call this little babe? I havent figured out something cute to refer to it as...and I dont like refering to a baby as "it" lol

Anyhoo...like I said, not much to update. I have my first midwife and ultrasound appointment on May 18 (two seperate appointments..just happens to be the same day...so will make sure all is well and that babe is growing as he/she should and A will get to meet the midwife so Im super excited about that!!!

Second beta...

...was a whoppin 652!!! Yeehaw! GREAT number...we are really happy about it!!!

Im feeling pretty great! I have to pee...alot! lol And Im hungry all the time (which really was the first sign I was pregnant lol) I think with me eating a bit more, its causing my hearburn...Im seeing major heartburn issues for this pregnancy (not unlike my third, which saw me through 3 bottles of Gaviscon! lol). I am technically about 4 weeks 5 days pregnant (which is so weird considering I only had the transfer 13 days ago) and one of my pairs of jeans is already getting a bit snug (damn meds...they probably are not helping). Ive been active on a surro forum and some of the ladies mentioned with betas like that, it could be twins! Yikes! Mes think not! lol I mean, I guess its possible for the embryo to divide but we did only transfer one so its probably not likely. Wouldnt that be a suprise though, if at our first ultrasound, we find that out?!! LOL
I have my first midwife appointment on the 18th of May....Im so happy that A and D are ok with me using a midwife as I gotta say, my experience with a midwife was so much better then a doc....not to put down the docs, because she was awesome, but I love the much more personal experience I get with a midwife. I love having up to an hour with her, rather then being rushed in and out in 10  min. I love that I get to make decisions based on my care, not just because "they" think I need it. Informed decision is an amazing thing, and I learned so much with my third pregnancy.

Anyhoo...I dont have much more to report...just my awesome second beta!!!! :)

And the news weve been waiting for......

................................................................................................................................................................................IM PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!


OMG!!!! I cant even tell you how excited I am!!!! Ok...Ill admit (now that I can) that on sunday, I broked down and had to POAS! LOL So I knew I was pregnant....BUT I had to keep my big mouth shut until my IP's knew after the beta today (which I might at at 10dp a 5dt was 212!!!!! so AWESOME!) So...this morning at 9:30 am I went for the blood work...of course, I could hardly wait for the results and kept refreshing the eHealth online over and over until it FINALLY showed up at 2:00ish!!! So I immedietly called up the NC in Seattle and told her....emailed her the eHealth report and she called A and D later on, when they were both home to receive the news! Then they called me on speaker phone and we had a nice little chat....we are all so excited!!!! Im so happy right now! Cloud 9 really!!!! Im so happy to be doing this and feel soooooo fortunate to be able to do it!!!!!

Second beta will be on friday....lets hope we see a nice number!!!! Either way, Im pregnant and thats the best news we could have had!!!!!!


Ok...so early, I know...but I added a ticker. I did a couple of IVF calculator which said Im due Jan 2, which says Im 4 weeks pregnant! Im a little confused because Ive only had the transfer 10 days ago, a 5 day embie which would be 15 days pregnant...thats no where close to 4 weeks...am I losing it? Does it get calculated differently then Im thinking?

Well....tomorrow is the big day....I go for blood work to see if Im pregnant or not!!! Ive been so anxious about this day because I just want it to be positive!!!! I do feel pregnant in some ways though. I have been hungry ALL THE TIME!!! Thats usually a sign for me lol. Since I did my cleanse, I havent had the craving to eat late at night but alas, here its been about 11pm and Im actually STARVING!!!! Seriously! And because I have my thyroid meds to take on an empty tummy, I cant even full fill my craving if its after 11pm (I usually go to bed around 1am so 11pm is the cut off).
Anyhow...as soon as A and D know the results, Ill be posting!!!! Wish me luck!!!

Seriously...Im going (pardon my french) fucking crazy with the waiting!!!!!!!! Ughhhhh!!!!!! Seriously!!!! Going nutso with anticipation! I dont know how other surros can take pregnancy test after pregnancy test, getting BFN over and over because they start so early...I just cant do it!!! Ive been told by the clinic NOT to take a pg test...but I just might have to for shits and giggles lol...of course, I wont be able to post the result, it would just be for me, to stop me from going nucking futs!!!! This is worse then the hurry up and wait period....its way worse...like 10 times worse times 10!!!!! I want to know sooooo badly it almost hurts!!!!

Not much new...

Not sure if I feel pregnant yet lol Ive never really felt pregnant in the early stages...in fact, I didnt know I was pregnant with my first child until I was 11 weeks! I get no symptoms and that kind of sucks because theres nothing definitive toI indicate that this little embie is settling in nicely in my fluffy uterus! I keep thinking that I may have felt it implant, but I just dont know. I hear that when your on all the meds and stuff, that you start pudging out quicker and stuff and I definetly feel fatter lol...or maybe I just am! Its only been 4 days after all lol
So we have this thing called eHealth where you can check the results of your blood tests the same day you have the blood drawn....you see them before your doctor even gets the results. I asked my IPs if they wanted me to call them with the results, but they would prefer to have the "official" word...which probably wont get to them until the next day!!! Its going to KILL me to sit on that information for 24 hours!!! How can I not let my followers know, who Im sure will be waiting so anxiously, the results of the pregnancy test!!!!!!! lol

Today we had my aunts funeral. I spoke the eulogy and spoke for my mom as well. It was an emotional day but it was a nice to see everyone and to know so many people loved her so much.

Rest in paradise Auntie Tammy....love you always....see you on the other side.

Transfer complete!!!

Yay!!! Back from Seattle and the transfer went great!!!

We drove down Saturday afternoon and right away went to Pike Place market...where I picked up a couple of things (I love that place).  We then went to our hotel to check in, took an hour to ourselves (me in my room...them in theirs) and met back down in the Lobby at 7. They had made reservations at this place called the Wild Ginger....O M G....soooooo amazing!!!! The food was delish. We have Seven Flavor Beef, Green Chili Thai chicken,Shrimp Pad Thai and Seshwan Beans all served with rice. I had my last beer (a La'Connor Porter...nice and dark) and we finished our meal with a crazy yummy chocolate torte. The dinner was truly the best meal Ive ever had...and the company was great!!!

We went back to our rooms where we went our separate ways away (we were on different floors). I had an ok sleep..not the best. And it wasnt out of excitement but out of what seemed to be the thinest doors ever!!! The hotel was nice, the rooms were nice and the beds comfy...but people were slamming doors and yelling down the halls at 2 and 4 am! WTF? You know, people do sleep!

Anyhow, we met down in the lobby at 10am as we had to be at the clinic at 10:30 so I could take my drugs and drink my water! We were taken into the room and waited for the doc and the embryologist, who told us that the embryo they were transferring, was "Grade A" and "The best you could hope for" He was very optimistic that we would get pregnant with this embryo!!! And they still had some to freeze as well which is great!!!

A and D got to be in the room and watch as they placed the little embie inside me. We got to see on a screen in front of us, the embie in its incubator being removed from its current home, going into the catheter type tube thingy (dont know the name of it) until it came into the room and was placed in its new home, inside my uterus!!! Sooooo exciting!!!! We saw it on the ultrasound go in. I laid there for 15 min (I ended up getting up to go pee as I couldnt hold it anymore) and then got dressed and left the clinic. After, we went and grabbed some subs and we were on our way back home (made it back in record time too!)


This is just so exciting!!! I cant believe that right now, I have this little embryo inside me!!! Ive been rubbing my belling saying "common little embie!!! Get comfy!!! I make a great host!!!" encouraging it along!!!

Here are a couple of pictures from the transfer!!! (I do have a better picture of the embryo...but its scanned on my other computer which is being an asshole right now and I cant do anything with it right now)

Us right before the transfer

The blastocyst...its already splitting and he even said there were "fetal cells" which is the dark spot

bad pic...but the line there is the catheter with the embie in it...we saw it shoot right out!