Sunday, April 1, 2012

3 months already!

Wow...its hard to believe that Hazel is 3 months already!!! I know...Im a couple days late, but I just havent had the time to sit and write...and I didnt know what to write either...still dont lol.

I have to say, things have gotten much easier. I remember about the 2 and 3 week mark, I was in a weird place. Not ppd but a little sad that everything was over...not knowing my place...and just feeling like I didnt know what to do with myself. I was struggling with how to cope with no longer being on this journey and wishing I could be a fly on the wall in A and Ds apartment so I could see and know how they were doing, all the time. At three months, things have definitely changed. I no longer feel sad or hormonal (ok, well the hormonal part is a lie lol). I dont worry about her or them and I am no longer upset that I dont hear from them. Im happy.Im proud. And I cant wait to do it again!!! I love telling people about our journey and how Hazel came to be. It really is my biggest accomplishment (besides my own beautiful children of course!).

I received a beautiful letter a couple weeks ago from A. While I know that I mean a lot to them, I think reading it from her was what I really needed and it helped a lot. Its a private letter so Im not going to share all the details, but one particular line made me cry (well, the whole thing made me cry) but this one line is particularly beautiful so I thought I would share:
"I wanted to to be able to tell my baby that she was born into this world by the generosity of the human spirit and that she is a gift to be celebrated and that her birth was a miracle. Because of you and our egg donor...I will be able to tell her that story." that not beautiful??? I think anyone would find the beauty in that sentence. Isnt surrogacy amazing?!

So, Ive been working 2 whole weeks at the new job and loving it. The people are super nice and Im really getting the hang of it. Its been hard this whole, getting up early and out of the house, commuting up to an hour and a half every day (depending on traffic)...and then an hour back home (more depending on traffic). I cant believe I am actually saying it....but I look forward to working the evenings where I wont have to worry about rush hour traffic. My first day on the phones, I got a commendation! Came in the next day to an email (I think they call it a "Bravo") which totally made my day. Things are looking good...I just hope I get on permanent!! is the latest recipes Ive made!

Monkey Bread
Monkey Bread:
 cup granulated sugar
 teaspoon cinnamon
 cans (16.3 oz each) Pillsbury® Grands!® Homestyle refrigerated buttermilk biscuits
 cup chopped walnuts, if desired
 cup raisins, if desired
 cup firmly packed brown sugar
 cup butter or margarine, melted

I used Grands Cinnamon Rolls because I couldnt find ones called "Homestyle" . Open the cans of rolls and separate each roll. Cut each one into 4. Mix together sugar and cinnamon and put in a ziplock. Place cut pieces of dough into the bag and toss to coat. Arrange dough, walnuts and raisins in a sprayed bundt or angel food cake pan (I dont have a bundt pan so it went in an angel food cake pan).  Combine the brown sugar and butter and pour over.

Bake at 350* for half an hour or so. Cool in pan for 10 min, then turn upside down onto a plate. Serve warm.

Pan Quiche
A dozen eggs
black forest ham (or cooked bacon if you prefer)
Parmasan or cheddar cheese (depending on preference) 

Fry up the onion and mushrooms. When they are done, toss in the ham to crisp it a bit.
While the veg is cooking, crack all the eggs into a large bowl add milk (sorry...I eyeball it...maybe half a cup?)  and whisk the shit out of it. I use a Braun mixer with the whisk attachment. Either way, you want it whipped really well. I also add pepper, parsley flakes and garlic powder while Im whisking. Pour the egg mixture over the veg and turn the heat down really low (you dont want the bottom to burn before the middle is cooked). Cover and keep an eye on it. You want to be using a fairly deep pan as it will fluff up. When its done, sprinkle some cheese over top, replace lid until it melts. When its ready, cut like a pie!


The Deputy said...

Definitely going to try that monkey bread!

I think you need to have a post partum party :)

I've been thinking about this a lot, and it seems to me like surrogates should have institutionalized big parties to serve as a ceremonial transition point out of pregnancy. I'm already making requests for mine... all the fancy whisky I can drink...

Ellen said...

Hi, I am a PhD Student in Paris, France and do a research on surrogate mothers. I was wondering if you might be interested to participate in my study? it would imply me sending you through email several questionnaires (3) and a consent form. It would be anonymous.I already have met with several surros but the more the better for the research! Let me know if you'd like that. I can answer all your questions too. Take care and bravo! Ellen (