Merry Christmas

Hello to my fellow bloggers, family and friends.

Just wanted to take a moment and wish everyone a very Merry Christmas....from my family to yours!!!!

This year I am particularly grateful to have a wonderful family. Though Miles and I are separating, we get along completely and still care about each other a lot. We spent Christmas together as normal....as a family....and I hope it is always that way. In the summer, my good camera, the one I waited forever for, broke and since then I have felt the void. I love taking pictures and have really missed having a decent camera to have fun with. Well....Miles got me a replacement one. These cameras are like $1000!!! He really is amazing. I cried when I opened it, which made him cry. I love that we can still have these moments and its not weird and we can openly hug each other and appreciate each other. It shows our kids that you dont have to fight and hate each other through a separation. I think its teaching them, and us, a lot about how things can be.

I have found a house and will be moving in in January...and I am super excited about that. Its a great home and has plenty of room. It will be nice to have a place to call my own, where I can bring the guy Im seeing over, where I can be alone if I want, but with people if I choose. Where I can make my own space and not have to ask someone for their opinion. It will be a nice change from the past 16 years of my life. I am looking forward to it.

Here are some pictures from Christmas today!!! I had to work, so no pictures were taken between breakfast and dinner lol But here are some good ones that I took while I was still home.

Braelyn and her books

Maddie and her books!

Juli and her movies

Girls and their sleepers! lol Complete with bum flaps

Ready for dinner!

My niece Skye

Our family

And the best gift of all....a pic of my surro babe, who will be 2 on the 30th

Moving along!!!!

So today I went for my hysteroscopy and it was a successful scope! I was little worried because I was due to get my period and had some spotting yesterday. If I had to cancel this appointment, I likely wouldn't get in until after Christmas, which would put our transfer into Feb...when our original plan was Dec! As it is, we are already pushed to Jan so it would have been a huge disappointment, to say the least, had I not been able to take the appointment.

Thankfully, everything looked great though and I was able to email the nurse at the transferring clinic and she emailed me my calendar!!! Looks like transfer will take place sometime between the 19th and 25th of January!!!! The order for meds has been sent to the clinic here....and I start Lupron next week! It is finally starting to feel real now...like there is a light at the end of the tunnel! A and I joked that it was a Christmas miracle! lol

I thought it was pretty cool and took a pic of my uterus...I told the doctor it was because I wanted to show my kid...but truly, I just think its really rad to see the inside of me....all pink and smooth. He removed a small polyp on my cervix right then and there and said his report will say Im ready to go!

Theres my uterus and the entrance to the Fallopian tube! Pretty cool eh!

So I was able to head over to the Sunshine Coast last week and took a pic at the mandala in Roberts Creek. Man I love that place and would so love to move there. I've made friends with some beautiful people in that town.....here is a pic of me at the mandala. I have lost quite a bit of weight and currently only 5 lbs from my goal...just in time to gain it all back lol

Oh the lovely "hurry up and wait" phase.

It just seems there is delay after delay...and Im starting to get a little discouraged. Not only did the clinic in the states where we do the transfer, screw the pooch, but we have had some issues with the clinic here as well, and then my dr's office....dont even get me started on that. Finally get everything in order....appointment made for tomorrow for my hyteroscopy and what happens...break through bleeding (my bad...I missed a BCP and took it the next day). So, that appointment is cancelled and made for next week. By then, I could have my AF again and back to waiting. 

So...that is whats happening in my world right now. Argggghhhhh